Monday, October 10, 2005

and so;

i totally have no idea what to do to occupy myself for the whole of this month. no eating during day-time. and hell. life can't get any boring than this. having to stay home these days. with no school, no friends, no food, no shiznits. not having to study since the shitty exams are long over. no idea. basically, NOTHING.

how i miss those days in school. with the ever so noisy class. 'bullying' the ever so toot teacher, Mr Tang with all sorts of his favourite phrases shits. those lame yet somehow entertaining crap shits from the jokers in class. miss sitting by the window, yawning, dreaming, all sleepy while i blast the stereo. ouh, i mean while i have those earpieces stuffed into my ears, listening to my mp3 and having to get my ass glued to the chair and trying to pay attention to the boring lessons. (except for history, i guess)

i bloody miss all my friends! melissa's lameness. 'izzati's loudspeaker's voice. hilda's jakun-ness. all the lovely mates' own attitude and 'unique' personality. hah.

missing the seow-ting-tong girlfriends. all those movie marathons and sleepovers at aleya's place. lunat!!c ladz's sewel-ness. her wants to go to our so-called second home at hougang and have 'biskut kering' and milo with the other friends there. naz's huggies and kisses. that bitchings and all. azmymi's cute smiles and her blur-blur plus punk rock attitude. and long-time-no-see shamimi and ama.

now now;

i really need somebody to knock some sense into me. i've been feeling so toot-up these days. so empty inside. somehow, i feel hollow as though someone just shot a bloody huge bullet right through my brainless brain and yes, my heart.

no feelings for guys whatsoever. totally not interested. hell, it's just not right. i've already told fat to stop texting me cos i'm just plain lazy to entertain all those stupid messages. didn't even take the initiative to reply syafiq's message, like i always do. want to text kambing and wish him some toot stuffs like happy fasting and all, but didn't. it's the 'can't be bothered' attitude i'm giving to guys. even to ron (i guess) don't feel like smsing him already. BLEH!

all i can think of now is... BLEH!

yeah. it's that toot kind of attitude. been only a few days of so-called holiday and i'm so shitlessly restless. and in case you guys are wondering, i took the mouse from the cabinet and just plugged it in. nothing else for me to do. my pigsty is all clean. re-arranged the table and stereo. wiped clean all those yucky dust off the shelves. brought the curtains down to wash. re-folded my clothes in the wardrobe. slept a lot. sick of sleeping already. read 'the outsiders' a few times. since last friday.


i want my FAIRY GODMOTHER!
GOD MAMA! MOVE YOUR DUSTY ASS; FLY HERE AND GRANT ME MY WISHES! MOVE IT!

my god! i just want to soak myself in the pool, get myself all tanned. enjoy the breeze and lovely sun. hit town; shop till i drop. DANCE! work all those muscles, burn the fats.

oh wells.

anyway, i'm off. tired of facing this screen. typing all these nonsense.

tata~

3:00 PM