Sunday, October 16, 2005

1)F4
2)F1
3)E5
4)E2
5)E1
6)D1

there you go people.
i've made my final decision.

oh so glad that i can only qualify to squeeze myself into these courses, which i doubt those sweet classmates of mine from the so noisy and hyper class, will even take a glance at. wooo hooo~

next year onwards, i'll be able to at least get in more shiznits into my brain while studying at a much slower pace. how i'm going to like it. sick of being stuck among those smarty pants mates who will (i have no idea why) be all somber and gloomy even though they get Bs for tests and exams. isn't that a pass? think of those who get Cs or even Ds. those who are not as bright as you. how do you think they'll feel?

in case you smartasses don't know, i'll feed you on it.

OK.
think of how you feel when you get Bs.
you'll obviously say that you're hopeless, dreams all shattered, feel all torn inside, cry whole day(maybe).
then try to imagine. what if you get Cs and Ds?
you'll feel worst. duh!
then think again.
those who are not as clever, those who need more time to absorb what you probably find chicklebis.
they always tend to get Cs or Ds. those are just pass, borderline marks.
they are so much more appreciative. even though they can't get at least Bs, they are glad that they can even pass.
if they get Bs, they are oh so happy.
what i'm trying to say here is you smart people should be much more appreciative. you people often get good grades, so be happy with it. it's good enough that you don't fail.

nevermind. i don't think i'm making any sense here. i'm not going to spoon feed you guys. try and find out for yourself how you think those slower ones feel even when they get Bs. the Bs which you think is the failing point, where you start to feel all crappy and dumb when you get them.

don't ask why i make such decisions. to go into combined science, the last class or whatsoever. i'll assure you that i'll be very happy where i'll be later on next year. hopefully i can cope with the shiznits.

very sorry to my mom. for not studying harder and getting better grades, for not being able to take 8 subjects and be with the smart people. i'm born the way i am. not so smart, not so dumb(i hope). just can't absorb things fast this year. god knows why.

all the best to you guys who'll be moving on to triple science and double science classes. may you guys be happy wherever you guys may be. =D

i'm half glad, half sad. i don't like the idea of being separated with my lovely E5 mates. but oh well. i can't do anything. we'll still be in the same school afterall. thanks for all the happy times together in class. those moments can only be memories now. i'll keep the class photos we took, enlarge them and frame them up. =)

anyways, i got home at 5.30am this morning and only woke up at 1pm. that's the way my life should be. no staying home please.

people, bear with me. i'm going to narrate everything.
and so, i went out with my girls; aleya & her little sweet sister, dayah. delivered food for their sister at her workplace, Peninsular Plaza. left yishun at 4+ and reached her sister's place only at 5+. don't laugh but we got lost. not really lost but somehow my sense of direction got all mixed up. we actually took a whole round around city hall, went through Raffles City shopping centre, walked all over to NLB, passed CHIJMES, crossed many traffic lights, took another big round and then finally reached Penin. oh yes, we were fasting. anyways, their elder sister is oh so gorgeous. one hot ladey. love her so gothic make-up, thick eyeliners, her spunky attitude, those chain belt. basically, her punkish dress up. thumbs up*
didn't do much there since there's nothing much there in the first place. hitched a ride in the train, break fast at NP's McDonalds. so, i text mom and asked whether they going Geylang. they were all ready to leave for Geylang by then. so told them to fetch me. and so they did. left for amk, baby Irfan's place. YAY! didn't get to meet baby Irfan on Friday night when we went over till yesterday. met other people there. dad's friends and yes, irfeen&his parents. practically every weekend we'll go out together. finally got hold of one green kebaya and a green clutch bag. total yayness. oh yes, Geylang was packed. had big, bulging and yucky blisters. hah. crapped a lot with ruzaini. we were like,'are you thinking what i'm thinking B1?' and 'pakai make-up tebal-tebal macam momok, macam momok. Masha'Allah, Masha'Allah.' blah blah.. haha. each time we saw minahs, we did that. how hilarious. heh. then irfeen,'she's eating hotdog cheese. tak boleh angkat ah. yum yum.' and started all the nonsense, stuffing the sausage into his mouth, sucking and all. you get the idea here? hah. dropped by at 7-11, he saw buns and started,'oohh.. now this..' so i was like,'oh yes, you might need some of those. get the expensive ones. it will be safer then.' hah. was standing by the counter and so pointed to those condoms. =D heh. then went separate ways. irfeen fetched japstarr at Esplanade, we sent ruzaini home. then met up with irfeen and dad's other friends at yishun dam. chilled till 4+ there. text zul but fell asleep half way in dad's car. and so, they sahur at the 24hours coffeeshop near our place. didn't join them, too sleepy. so slept in the car. and then reached home only at 5.30am. by then, i can't have at least a sip pf water. too late. haiyok. still, i can manage. =))

4:40 PM