chilling in school's computer lab is kind of fun. not doing much of IPW. not in the mood to do the rest of the homework. simply because my head's in a whirl. seriously. and to stop myself from being giler, i have with me many many chocolates! and all those junks. think i'll be overweight by the time school reopens. then i'll be in TAF club. lols. too bad i didn't bring all those junks with me to school. ouhh well. my mind's all over the place. bugger. ahah. bugger reminds me of burger! OK. now that's what i call lame. now i'm hungry. but i want LJS. not burgers.

i've been thinking very hard about me and him. khabir. should we continue? well, for all i know i can't be bothered with him anymore. been thinking about ending it all now and lead the life i've always wanted since like a month ago. single!then he came. darn. i'm suffering from Great Depression. ouhh God. one after another stupid problems just keep rushing in. fathin definitely came into my life at the wrong time. TOTALLY. i'm sick. sick of living this stupid and fucking life of mine. if only i can swith life with someone. someone who's happy with her life. ouhh darn. i just feel like kicking myself in the ass. and the worst thing is lilQ even text me to ask about khabir and me. fuck la. he could have just keep everything to himself. he don't have to let the whole world know. so the kental siol. it's as though he's asking her to help us solve our fucking problem. what the fuck la! nonsense se. and i'm even more disappointed although he told me he's sorry and all. simply because i don't think he's really sorry at all. go to hell la! apologized through sms. what are you bloody fool?? chicken? why you don't dare to talk to me face-to-face or at least give me a fucking call to talk over this? alamak. frust se. you think i like to have this shit? if you still need to think, the answer is NO! like duh! i don't want to waste my bloody time on this type of nonsensical shit. and now, i feel so freakingly empty with nobody to talk to. ouhh well. at least there's some people who cares. i'm always turning to aleya, lunat!!c ladz, naZ and fathin everytime i feel lonely. i feel i really owe them for being there for me whenever i need somebody to talk to. have been spending two whole days with aleya at her place. all because i need company. at least her family's great. especially her mommy. and yeahh. her sisters and brothers. they are a bunch of great people. and yeahh. the lovely girlfriends. they care to hear me out. not to forget fathin. i'm like telling him my problems even though we just got to know each other. he even cared to talk to me on the damn phone till like 2 in the morning. and him? he only knows how to apologize and apologize and apologize. the worst part is it's all through sms! ouhh god! let's just end it all here then. i've made up my complexed mind. that's it. i want it all to go my way. hopefully he'll agree. just give me a fucking break. sick and tired of his nonsense. and i've been sitting in front of this computer for the past few hours and i only received an sms from fathin. not him. how sad! hah.

ohh well. i don't want anything except for this shit to be over.

i want my girlfriends!

i want LJS!

i want to giler-giler with my girlfriends!

ehk. i see more of 'i want..' when i just said i don't want anything. oh bugger. oh burger. i see food! i see my bed! i want to sleep! no no. changed my mind. i want to play swing! i want elmo! i want barbie! i want lots and lots of things!

think i better get out of this blogger shit. if not i won't stop typing shits. ouhh well shits.

tata~

shits.

lol.